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Post by Jesus, lol on May 13, 2007 16:54:44 GMT -5
Kei didn't quite know what to do, what to say. Her head was pounding, and she just didn't want to think about anything anymore. Curling into her hoodie, she lowered her eyes to the ground.
Weak. So goddamn weak. Right when people needed her to be strong. Moki...Kary...Ai...and now Taku needed her to be stable and she couldn't even touch the one person she cared about most.
"Please...please understand, I care about you," she managed, voice quavering. "I just...it's..."
Struggling to articulate herself, Kei clutched at her arms, feet carrying her towards her haven without conscious effort. Her dark hair fell into her face, and she paused.
"Things just...happened," she rasped out, revealing more than she'd told even her own mother. "It's not your fault. It's mine. I'm sorry..."
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Post by TAKUUUU on May 15, 2007 7:54:29 GMT -5
With a sigh that expressed even his deepest heartfelt sorrows, he lowered his head and began to just give a slight smirk, a clear-cut sign of showing that he was depressed. “I understand… I think…” Taku spoke with clear uncertainty, that tone in his voice easily betraying his minds thoughts. “Could you possibly… Tell me what happened then… While I was away…?” He wanted to know, unlike many who would just ask that question to make it seem like they cared about someone. It actually hurt. The one man who thought he would never fall for someone, or even be hurt physically, was being thrashed at mentally by both himself and Kei, due this one thing that would not let her be herself. “Tell me Kei…” He again spoke with an almost stutter to his voice, a fist beginning to clench.
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Post by Jesus, lol on May 15, 2007 20:36:59 GMT -5
She opened her lips, but could not speak.
Kei closed her eyes, hands trembling. Tell...she couldn't tell. He'd truly see what scum she was, undeserving, filth, and then she'd be alone again. Forever. There was no way to overcome this, to be pure and good again.
She hated herself so much right now. She wanted so desperately to disappear, fade away into nothingness.
But she had to tell him. He wanted her to, and despite everything, she loved him more than anything. She couldn't let him down, not again.
"I...I couldn't stop them," she whispered, a frantic desperation in her voice. "I tried, I did...! I just...they were stronger. I...they were boys in my class...I didn't...I was too weak to stop them..."
She choked quietly, rubbing at her eyes with pale fingers. Hunching in upon herself, she could feel that guilt tearing away at her.
"I wanted to save myself s-so I could wear w-white...I wanted to be pure...I'm sorry...I...failed everyone."
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Post by FOOO TAKU KU on May 16, 2007 8:03:52 GMT -5
Taku seemed to fail at grasping a meaning for a few seconds as she sputtered out the words of redemption. Although, once the ideas actually began to click through his mind, he was filled with both rage and sympathy. Not knowing which to present, he became slightly confused and began to let thoughts fly through his mind. Without even understanding what he was saying, he began snarling lightly. “Who were they…” He spoke softly, fatally, in an almost calm-before-a-storm like way. His motions were strict and jagged, his fists clenched and ready to be unleashed into the world of her ‘attackers’. But his confusing kicked in again and the sympathy took over as he quickly reached out and took her up into his arms, holding her tight and just sighing softly with her there. “I will find them… Don’t worry… And they will be sorry… For everything…”
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Post by Jesus, lol on May 16, 2007 20:21:26 GMT -5
She stood with her head hung and her eyes locked on the ground. Her heart was pounding in her chest, dread dwelling in the pit of her stomach. Just waiting for him to hate her.
Hearing his snarl, she couldn't help but flinch. One would think that this fear would ease over time, that she could grow used to it. But it seemed that every moment that passed, the terror grew. She hated it. She feared she was going mad like this.
But his arms were around her, and even though she tensed instinctively...did he not hate her? She wasn't sure what to think anymore. She wanted to trust him...more than anything. But it was hard, when he was so angry, so much stronger than her, and the foundations of her world completely shattered...
Still standing with her back to him, she faintly touched his hands, closing her eyes.
"D-don't bother yourself with it..."
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Post by Takuness on May 18, 2007 7:59:21 GMT -5
That was that. He had instantly decided what he was going to do, based on her choice of words and the way she spoke them. She was scared. Scared of losing again. That’s all that life ever seemed to throw was loss after loss after loss. Now he was sure. As her touch brushed across his own hands, he seemed to loosen his grip a bit, finally sighing one last breath. “I know what is going to happen now…” He spoke with an eerie calm that would cause most hearts to catch. “These… boys… Are the reason of your fear… So… I shall show them a fear as well… A fear far different from their own…” There was a light malicious tone in his voice, one that seethed of death. Taku really was a loyal man, just not the brightest at times, which was one of his major downfalls in life, whether it be meaningful or not. “If I don’t do anything about it… It will bother me even more…”
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Post by Jesus, lol on May 18, 2007 22:36:55 GMT -5
His words...they confirmed everything she'd ever feared. She'd never wanted Taku to hurt others, especially not because of her. She hated conflict, avoided it like the plague. Maybe that was they had chosen her. She was weak, more content to pretend it had never happened than tell.
Now that she'd told...she wanted to take her words back. Never before had she wanted so desperately to take them back.
"Don't...please, please don't..." She whispered, throat flexing. She turned in to him, burying her face in his chest, arms wrapped solidly about him. "Please don't hurt anyone Taku-kun! I don't want that!"
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Post by KU KU KU TA FO on May 21, 2007 8:06:12 GMT -5
He stiffened almost instantly upon her request. A seeming split having formed in his road for him to now choose. With a blank mind and silent features, he narrowed his gaze slowly while his fists trembled lightly. “I…” He spoke in a struggling like way. Taku couldn’t believe the way she was acting, why not want the people that hurt you like this be hurt themselves in a much more brutal manner. It was something that he could and never would understand because of the nature that he was ‘raised’ with. To fend for yourself. To know the next day could be your last. To fight for your basic instincts of survival. This was his life. Far from that of the cushioned and fabricated one of her own. So understandably there would be some differences, but this, he couldn’t believe, and would not believe. “I… I can’t just sit by and let something like that happen to you…” His voice was strong and firm, yet held a hint of a quiver to it. “I will not sit by idly… I am going to do something, whether it kills someone or not, I am not going to watch you get hurt and do nothing about it…” His voice had finally cracked at the end, and a few tears seemed to trail from this man always thought unbreakable.
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Post by Jesus, lol on May 21, 2007 19:37:56 GMT -5
She wasn't getting through to him. Staring up at him, she wiped his eyes, holding his face in her hands. Her own eyes were spilling tears, and she bit her lip.
"Taku-kun, if you hurt them...they're just going to want to hurt you back...it won't ever stop, Taku-kun!" Her hands trembled, voice quavering. "Taku, I want this to stop! But if you hurt them, go after them, i-it'll just continue and I'll n-never forget...I...I don't want them to hurt you!"
She slid her hands to his chest, grasping at his shirt and lowering her eyes.
"I...I love you so much it hurts...I...just don't...it...it scares me when you're like this..."
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Post by gasp TAKU on May 26, 2007 17:29:25 GMT -5
He let his mind come back to reality once again as she took his head in her hands. It took him just a bit to realize what she was saying, but he finally really understood by the tone of her voice. She didnt want him hurt. Well duh. But. That wasnt who he was. Taku was a man made for war, made for the attacks on life. This was going to be something that would have to be done in steps, not all at once. Thinking in silence for a few seconds, he finally sighed gently, letting his hands come up to clasp hers together between his. "I... If it means... being with you... I will try to change... I will change for you... The muscles in his body seemed to start tensing as he began speaking. "You have my word... I wont... I wont attack them... But I guarantee you... I won't let it happen again..."
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Post by Jesus, lol on May 27, 2007 11:18:20 GMT -5
Kei looked up at him, feeling his hands over hers. She knew they had to be quite a sight–stopped in the middle of the sidewalk, tense. People didn't seem to pass more than a passing glance.
He...he finally understood. But guilt passed through her, making her lower her eyes and fidget.
"I'm sorry I'm so selfish...I'm sorry..." Gazing at her feet, which were suddenly the most interesting things in the world, she couldn't help but apologize. "I...I'm sorry I couldn't...have stopped all this...I wanted to wait for you...and I'm...I'm sorry. I shouldn't have let it happen..."
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